Bow Down to the Start Over Queen
Greetings, kingdom. It is I, the Start Over Queen, here to bless your day with some more wild wisdom from the small, mindful corners of this blog.
Alright, I never said I was very eloquent, did I? Still, I truly AM the Start Over Queen. I’ve rebooted more times than my clunky old Dell laptop.
I used to really doubt myself for having to start over and over again in my life. And admittedly, sometimes I still feel that way. Yet, I mostly feel proud. I’m proud that I always had the courage to correct course if I felt like it wasn’t going well.
Let me rewind a bit for comprehension.
Ever since I was 8 years old I knew I wanted to be a musician, a pianist to be exact. That dream expanded into Broadway musicals, writing hit songs for well-known artists, and even just being a lounge lizard at hotel bars – you know the kind with a big tip glass on the mahogany grand? I’ll never forget the look on my parents’ faces (and the deafening silence) when I told them that THAT is what I wanted to do with my life. I did get into music school but ended up dropping out. I didn’t think I had what it takes.
So I changed my major to German. (I know what you’re thinking: WHAAAA?) I literally thought, “Well, what do I do NOW?” Music was all I ever wanted to do. And writing. So I thought, “I like to travel, and I was good at German in high school. Hey!! Great idea! I’ll just study German!” What a wonderful reason to study, right? After my studies led me to do a semester abroad in Germany, I ended up doing a Master’s in Business Administration, aka, Master’s in I-Don’t-Know-What-Else-To-Study.
From there I got right into the management consulting world where I lost track of time until about 7 years later when I realized I was in this life for all the wrong reasons. I had to change something. Again. So, I did. Some might say I was burnt out. Some might say I was crazy. I would say I was lost and unhappy.
I was worn out and worn down from committing every waking hour of my life towards being good at something that didn’t make me the least bit proud or happy.
So started my own business. Just like that I started a translation business from my dining room table. I started cold-calling companies and eventually landed fantastic clients, from ad agencies, to universities, to national newspapers and Fortune 500 companies. Again, I was successful. This time I had more fun, but this nagging feeling kept coming up that it just wasn’t “it”. So I went back to college and got my Master’s in clinical psychology (while still running my business and making babies, mind you.). It is then I started over – again – and founded the MINDBAR® where I help individuals and organizations get clear about what they want, what they do well, and help them achieve it and manage the stress and pressure of life and work at the same time. It is my thang, people. I luvvv it.
Ok, so we’re caught up now.
That is my story in a nutshell. I have started over so many times – I haven’t even included all the start-overs in this post, ya’ll!
You know how many people seem to have a straight path? It’s like their path is a straight line?
Well, mine looks more like a beeline or an unraveled ball of yarn.
And while I don’t assume that all those straightliners aren’t doing exactly what makes them happy, I do believe that many are just stuck on that line because they started it and don’t think they can change anything.
This is the thing: You CAN change it if you want to.
Do you feel like you’re in a hamster wheel? Do you work for the weekends? Is the first thing you think of when you alarm goes off something to the effect of “UGH”?
If so, let’s unpack that.
What is that feeling? Is it dread? Is it longing? What is keeping you from changing anything in your life? Do you fear change? Or do you simply feel like you don’t have time to pause long enough to think about it? How can you reset your life without blowing the entire thing up?